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One tear. It was the only tear she had
ever seen the quiet boy cry.
His name was Wesley.
He seemed a nice enough boy, but yet a very quiet one. That one tear would haunt
Misty for the rest of her life.
Today had been a
really bad day. It was
one of those occasions on which she found she had to wear extra
make-up to school. Most
girls loved to wear make-up, but Misty hated it. Most people would never
understand why a teenage girl would hate make-up, but there are a
few. Most girls wore
make-up because they thought it made them look grown-up or
beautiful. Misty wore
it to hide the bruises.
On
that day so long ago, Misty was wearing more make-up than usual, a
lot more, in fact. She
was so preoccupied with her own problems that she barely noticed
Wesley, the quiet boy, as he arrived to walk at her side and carry
her books to school that day.
As he usually did, Wesley walked up without saying a word,
and he simply reached over, took her schoolbooks and walked by her
side. It was their
daily routine. She
wasn’t sure when it began.
It seemed like it had always been that way. Little did she know that
today would be the last time.
She heard the
neighborhood bullies yelling and hollering at Wesley from the
direction from which he had come down the street. She couldn’t make out their
words, but bullies being what they are, she didn’t need to
hear. They were teasing
Wesley again.
When she finally
looked over at Wesley and saw the single tear, it hit her like a
brick. Wesley was
crying because some of the boys were yelling names at him. “What a wimp,” they
yelled. He didn’t have
any idea what real pain was.
Oh sure, sometimes he came to school with bruises, but what
kid wasn’t occasionally picked on by bullies. Life sucks and then you die,
right?
Suddenly, all
the anger that was inside her exploded to the surface. She turned to him and told
him he was a crybaby and a wimp. How dare he cry when
she herself had to hide her own pain? Misty, the girl who knew
what true pain really was, the girl who never cried, told the
crybaby to go home and that she never wanted to see him
again.
Wesley looked at
her and said, “You deserve better.”
She
screamed back at him, “You’re damn right I deserve better friends,
ones that don’t cry like babies.” With that said, she stormed
off without a look back.
Twenty years
passed and she had never spoken to Wesley again. Something had happened that
day that she could not fully explain. It happened when all the
pain that she had suffered throughout her whole life had seemed to
explode in that one instance.
That one tear
haunted her for years.
She rationalized it by telling herself that she was truly
angry with herself, at her father who beat her, and at a cruel world
that ignored the tears a little girl cried on the inside. And yet, a part of her was
embarrassed for the way she had acted. She was truly ashamed of
treating this kind young boy, who had never done anything but be
kind to her, so badly.
It was her embarrassment more than anything that kept her
from saying a word to him.
It was her very own shame that kept her from apologizing to
Wesley. She saw Wesley
many times over the years.
He would smile in her direction and part of her wanted to
smile back, but her anger and shame always made her turn away. In all these years, and with
all that had happened to her, she had never cried a single tear nor
had she ever spoken to Wesley.
When she was
sixteen, her father had passed away, and while part of her was
relieved that the beatings had finally ended, part of her was sad
and confused. Her
father was an enigma.
She had never really understood him. One minute he would be
sitting in his chair quietly, the next minute, he would be screaming
at her and calling her stupid.
She tried to be a good kid, but somehow always managed to do
something wrong to cause him anger. No matter what she did,
sooner or later he would start screaming and pull out the belt. He would punish her for
being a bad girl. It
was really strange, because after he punished her, he would say he
was sorry. He
would tell her that if only she’d done what he told her, then he
would not have been forced to punish her. After this, he would hold
her tight and tell her that he loved her. For a few days after those
incidents, everything would be good. He would treat her extra
special, and for a little while she would be happy and feel that
Daddy loved her again.
That
never seemed to last long.
Sooner or later, Dad would grow quiet and sullen, and his
anger would start again.
But no matter how bad it got, Misty refused to shed any
tears.
When Misty
turned eighteen, she met an older man who treated her very nicely,
and at first it felt like love, but in time she became afraid of his
kindness. Each day
Misty worried that his kindness would be replaced with anger, and
soon she felt she had to end that relationship.

The following
year she met a man who seemed like an angel half the time and the
other half seemed like the devil incarnate. He reminded Misty of her
father, with his mood swings.
One day he would treat her like an angel, but the next day
would blame her for everything and anything that happened to
him. Having no idea why
she did it, she married this man. She lived for the days when
he treated her like an angel, and lived in fear of the days when his
mood was somber.
Finally the
beatings began. Each
time they would begin the same way. For a few days things would
be calm, then he would grow quiet. Misty would try extra hard
to be a good wife, but to no avail, for sooner or later she would
make a mistake and provoke his wrath. Afterwards, he would be very
sorry and say how much he loved her. He would shower her with
love and affection, but stressing the fact that if only she would
try a little harder, he would not be forced to beat her.
It
seemed that with each year that passed, she had to wear more make-up
to cover the bruises.
It finally got so bad that she had to run for her life, and
then she had to start over again. Misty was afraid of men but
even more afraid to be alone.
It was as if she could never trust a man after what she had
been through.
Twenty-five
years after the last time she had spoken to Wesley, she ran into him
once again. She had
gone into his flower shop, forgetting that one of her friends had
mentioned he was the new owner. She had already picked up
the flowers and headed for the register when she realized her
mistake. There behind
the counter, and looking at her with a tear in his eye, stood
Wesley.
Misty was totally confused, there were no bullies
here, why was he crying now?
She began to get angry with him again. She looked at him and said,
“I don’t understand why you cried then, and why you have a tear in
your eye now, it just doesn’t make any sense.”
Wesley looked at her with a smile slowly creeping onto
his face as he said to her, “The tear wasn’t for me, the tear was
for you.”
Misty was shaken by his words and began
stammering. “For me,
why?” Wesley took her
hand into his and the quiet boy who was now a man, looked into her
eyes and said, “I love you, I have always loved you.” Upon hearing his words,
Misty began to cry. For
the first time since she was three years old, tears began to well in
her eyes. In a voice
that was barely a whisper, she heard herself say, “But why were you
crying, was it because of the bullies?”
Wesley answered her gently, “I wasn’t crying for my
pain, I was crying for yours.”
When Misty asked how he had known about her pain,
Wesley’s response was simple, “My mother, she wore a lot of make-up
too.” Suddenly, Misty
understood everything.
Wesley’s bruises weren’t from the bullies, they were a gift
from his father. Wesley
had not been crying for himself. Because he saw her wearing
heavy make-up, he had known what was happening to her. After all these years, she
finally realized that his tears had not been for himself, they had
been for her. Wesley’s
final words on that fateful afternoon so many years ago finally came
to her. Wesley’s last
words had been, “You deserve better.”
At this point, Misty fell into Wesley’s open
arms. She cried for
what seemed like an eternity, letting all the pain and anger that
was inside her flow like a river. Afterwards, Misty thought
about all that had happened and looked into Wesley’s eyes. She found herself
overwhelmed with love for this man who had cared so much for her and
said, “Wesley, you were right about something.” He gave her a questioning
look. Misty continued,
“You are right, Wesley, I do deserve something better.” Misty and
Wesley were married a year later and lived happily ever
after.
 
MORAL OF THE STORY
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